This is what we call real life… Happy endings would only mean Life with Jesus… Getting married doesn’t mean you will have a happy ending.. There would always be challenges in life… Seeing yourself having your own house, expensive cars and luxurious life don’t mean the same – you are only blessed to have a good life. Happy endings in movies aren’t real.. Because life doesn’t end there.. Real life is the life that you are facing now… Happy or not – this is REALITY…
“If we only die once? Who would you like to die with? If we only live once? Who would you like to live with?” What do we really need in life?
What happened to Phoebe and Lexie’s plan? Who is Mimi? When is Jerry going to ask Yassy to be his girlfriend? Why is Ronnie jealous? What’s going to happen to Jess and Chase? Will Cy get the chance to meet the Anonymous writer?
One Saturday Morning – Jessica – messy hair tied up, nerdy eyeglasses, big shirt and a pair of booty shorts, went down to the kitchen. Turned the lights on, took a cup of coffee and sat down. Daydreaming – the phone rang.
“Hello?” She answered
“Hey! It’s me, Chase, this is my sister’s number. You were not answering my calls so I decided to use my sister’s number. Can I invite you for dinner?”
“Dinner? Like, later?”
“But I just had dinner at your house the other night?”
“Is it an issue?” He asked
“Ah, nah – I – ah.. I’ll let you know later” She answered in a very monotonous voice.
Chase tried asking why she suddenly felt a bit off and was about to ask why she suddenly left the other night.
“Ah, is there any problem Jes?”
“Ah, nah. It’s okay Chase. I just ah, I ah – woke up on the wrong side of the bed.” She answered.
Tiff preparing breakfast for the kids.
Tiff: “Darls! Carlo! Kids come on down.”Shouting. Calling the kids. While preparing for two cups of coffee. “Baby, Mimi has never changed. She still looks sexy”
“Babe, have you checked the latest iPhone?” Matt, tryna change the topic.
“We just bought the latest two months ago..?” Tiff answered.
“I know, but it’s not for us. It’s for Darlene. I think it’s time to give her a cell phone. Besides she is already a teenager. It’s for her birthday anyway.”
“Awwww, that’s so sweet of you. But baby you don’t have to.”
“No, it’s okay. Let’s buy her one tomorrow.”
Matt — Tryna make things cool. He seemed like he’s hiding something from Tiff.
“So, whatchu think of Mimi? Dom dated her in college right?”
Matt, turned the TV on and sat on the couch.
“Yeah? I dunno babe. I have no idea.”
Tiff (confused), holding two cups of coffee, one for her and one for Matt.
“You have no idea??? Are you okay? (Giving the other cup to Matt) You were the one who told me that before!? You told me that Mimi and Dom dated? And that Mimi was awesome, and she was good in bed and that is…?? Hmm she is.. ugh.” And suddenly stopped talking for a second.
“Is there anything that I need to know Matt?” She asked.
“What? What do you mean? There’s none! What are you saying? Come on babe! It’s so early!” Matt became a little vex and for some reason, he decided to just leave Tiff’s house.
After a few minutes.
Tiff talking to Matt over the phone “What is wrong with you?!”
“What is wrong with me? Look, it is so early in the morning and you are such a nagger! Even in front of your children!” Matt yelling.
“I WAS JUST ASKING YOU, WHY WERE YOU SO ANGRY ABOUT IT? I DON’T UNDERSTAND! MY GOD.” Dropped the call.
Matt headed to the coffee shop right away.
Lexie: “Are you ready Phoeb?”
“I don’t think I can make it dude!”
“HAVE THE COURAGE… Remember? It’s better to try than not to. At least, you get an answer. What if it’s a yes?” Lexie answered
“And what if it’s a NO?!” scaredy-cat
“Whatevs! Let’s just try it okay? Do not be a cowardly dog, you idiot! Get ready! I’ll be there by 1.”
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Cy: “Hmm, not sure yet. Maybe I will just go to the cafe and read some stories.”
Pots: “Alright, text me or call me when you are already there. I will ask Caleb to drop me off at the cafe after we finish the invites”
“Jess! Coffee later? I hate Matt!”
“Ugh. Okay. But Tiff I don’t have any plans of going out today, can we just have coffee at home? Come over here. Call Yassy and let’s talk it over a cup of coffee. What happened?”
“I dunno. I think he is hiding something.I hafta figure out. I’ll call Yassy and we’ll be there at 1.”
1PM – that same day (Phoebe’s house)
(Phoeb, in a hurry, locking the door, with her black backpack, wore his cap and hopped into Lexie’s car)
Phoeb: “I dunno. But, do I have a choice?”
Lexie: “THE FUDGE! Do you want this or not?”
“I do! I do! I was just kidding! haha Let’s go!”
1PM – that same day (Ronnie’s cafe)
Ronnie – about to sit at the table at the corner where Matt is. “Sorry dude, busy day. So what’s up? What happened?”
“It’s ok. Like as if I’m a customer here! I can manage. I even know how to prepare my own coffee.” Shaking his head. “Dude, I think I’m dead.”
“What the heck did you do?”
“I dunno, I got caught in the middle. I just showed Tiff like I got mad, but the truth is, I do not know what else to do. She kept on asking me about Mimi.”
“Uh-oh. You’re really dead man! I think it’s better if you tell Tiff right away.”
1PM – that same day (Jessica’s house)
“So what made you think he is hiding something from you?”
“Come on Yas! He just got mad! Like as if I did something really bad! I was only asking him about Mimi. That’s it.”
Jess: “Oh okay wai-wait. You mean Mimi? Mimi the Do-you-have-a-car-girl?”
“Exactly!” Tiff answered
“What do you mean Do-you-have-a-car-girl?”
“Well, Mimi, would always go for a guy who has a car. She won’t date you if you do not have a car. Regardless of your relationship status. Single, taken, married as long as you have a car. Old or new. handsome or not.. SHE- would date you.” Tiff answered.
“What the! For real?”
“Well, for the last few years that you were in the US Yas, that has been an issue. We even heard that she dated John Delos Reyes, Mark Felipe, Christian Lim, Anthony Ching, Carl, Nick and the rest of the gang. One group – one girl. The truth is – we didn’t mind. We never thought it’ll be an issue, besides we do not care. Plus, she never dated anybody in our group. But right after we saw her at the party of Dino..” (Shocked. Became a bit quiet. Thought of something.)
Yas: “Oh my God Jess! Do you think???”
“Oh my! No girls!!!!”Tiff
Took their cups and sipped altogether.
Lexie and Phoebe hiding outside.
Lexie: “There she is!! Go to her now and I will just order. I will be the one to do the thing.”
“Okay! Wish me luck!” Phoebe — a little nervous.
Phoebe: “Hey Cy!”
Cy, focused on the story, looked at her and greeted Phoebe. “Hey Phoeb! Who you with?”
“Ah, Lexie, he’s at the counter. Ordering some coffee.” Answered timidly.
“Ah okay. oh. Ordering? Over the counter? But, he can order here? Why does he have to order there?”
“Ah oh yeah. Uhm, he needs to go to the restroom too.” WHEW!
Cy, still reading, didn’t actually mind. “Hmm would you like to move to a different spot?”
“Sure! I think we can just sit at the smoking area. You know, Lexie smokes.”
“Alright, no problem.”
Heading outside of the cafe, Phoebe trying to look for Lexie, opened the door for Cy who is still reading some stories on her iPad.
AT THE COUNTER…
Lexie: “Boss Ronnie, we really need your help. Here’s the plan”
“You really like reading huh?” Phoebe asked Cy while grabbing one chair from the other table
“I am not a fan of reading. I love watching instead. And you know that. But the stories here do not always have a happy ending. REALITY you know.. Unlike in movies. These are like real stories. And I like the writer. Given the chance to meet her in person, I definitely would have the best day of my life.”
Phoebe smiled. “But it says here that she is an anonymous writer right? So how are you gonna see her”
“I dunno.” She answered.
“Hey! What’s up what’s up?!Yours.” (Lexie, giving the coffee to Phoebe and pinched her finger to let her know that everything is all set. Sat down and took a stick of a cigar.)
INSIDE THE CAFE
Matt: “So what do I do? Should I tell her? How? When? I dunno. This is gonna be a very big issue. I mean, you know Mimi.”
“Where is she now? I mean Tiff.” Rica asked. “Hon, can you get me a cup of coffee too, please. Thank you. (Talking to Ronnie)
“She isn’t responding. Kept on texting her and I even called her several times. But na-ah. Well, she usually goes to Jessica’s house.”
Yass: “So you think?…… You really think it happened that time huh?
Jess, slicing a piece of cake.
“Well, the only thing to figure that out is to call Chelsea.” Jess answered. “Try this out! Bought it in Laguna when I visited my grandma last Friday.
“If that is so, then let’s call her now!” Tiff hurriedly took her phone and dialed Chealsea’s number.
“Wow! This tastes really good.” Yass took a bite.
“It is indeed. Brazo de Fernando from Tedz Sta. Cruz, Laguna.”
“It’s just ringing! Is she busy?” Tiff asked.
“No idea. Or maybe she has an event today.”
“Maybe it’s better if we visit her sometime soon? Coffee maybe?” Yass suggested.
“That’s a great idea.”
“So where is Matt now?”
“I do not know. Or maybe at the cafe.” Responded Tiff.
Rica: “Ladies? Excuse me.”
Phoebe and Lexie looking at each other. Cy was a bit confused. Put down her ipad and looked at Rica.
“Yes Miss Rica?” Lexie pretended he doesn’t know anything.
Rica: “Ah, my husband gave handed these to me and asked told me that somebody came here yesterday and left this here. They were actually looking for you (looking at Cy)”
Cy, shocked: “Huh? Me? Left something? But I was here yesterday.”
“Well, yeah, I believe, an hour right after you left. The person looked okay though.” (Handed the bouquet of flowers with a card that says “You always look beautiful with that smile, Cyril”) A paper bag which has a teddy bear inside, And this. Paid for it yesterday and asked me to give you the coffee that you always order here. — So enjoy your day girls! See you around. I’ll get back to work.” Gave Lexie and Phoebe a wink!
Cy – still shocked. “Who could it be? I mean, I never talked to anybody here except you guys!”
Lexie and Phoebe still looking at each other. Confused. A little tensed though.
“Maybe one of your stalkers? Fans?” Lexie said.
“I swear, I do not have any idea. But the flowers are beautiful though… Wait. You guys ain’t playing me a joke huh?”
“And why would we do that?” Lexie asked.
“Ugh. Nah. I dunno. I just thought of it.”
Phoebe suddenly sent Lexie a message. “Where did you get the flowers???”
“I dunno! I only handed the bear and paid for the coffee and told Boss Ronie to pretend that someone was looking for her yesterday!”
Jessica’s house. at 6pm
Jess preparing dinner for the girls.
Yas: “Jess! Your cell phone is ringing!” Looked at it. “Hey!!! It’s Chase!”
Jessica, heard it. Heard that Chase is calling her. But she didn’t say a word.
Tiff: “Jess? Chase is on the phone?!”
Girls started to wonder why she ain’t responding. And not even answering the call.
Yas went to the kitchen and showed Jessica her phone. “3 missed calls, dear. Something wrong? I thought you guys are now ok? I mean you were there last time. You had dinner with his family? Right?”
“Something happened?” Tiff.
Jessica, preparing the table. “Ah. nah. I dunno. I just felt like, were okay that night. Yes. But.. (stopped for a moment). But I don’t think it is right. I mean yeah, we are friends.”
“I ain’t seeing anything wrong with that? Both of you are single.” Yas, While trying to taste the chicken on the table.
Jessica opened the fridge — And slightly closed it — looked at the two girls. “That’s what I actually thought as well.”
“Okay. So oh my God, you mean he is not single?” Tiff asked.
“I am not sure. But I do not know if I am interested in figuring out.”
Yas: “And why do you think is he calling you?”
“Oh we are always like this. Like we talk once in a while. Then a gap. Then talk again. Then a gap. Talk – gap -talk – gap. He was asking me dinner today though. Maybe that’s why he’s calling again. He called me this morning.”
“But courtesy at least Jess? Tell him you ain’t available?” Tiff.
“I dunno. I just don’t feel like talking to any guys today.”
Ronnie: “Hey! It’s been a long time. Heard that you and Jess are dating again. Or aren’t you? Whe’ where is she?”
Chase: “That’s actually the reason why I am here. I am looking for her. Didn’t she come here today? She told me she works here all the time.”
Matt: “Nah dude. She didn’t. But most probably they are having a girls night out. My girlfriend is also there. Didn’t you call her?”
Chase: “I tried. But she didn’t answer.”
Ronnie: “Oh these girls. Uncontrolled huff you know. Anything to drink Chase?”
Chase: “Oh! Sure! Great, I’ll try your coffee of the day?”
“Hey, girls! Wow! What a beautiful set of flowers. Ugh. This is??” Pots just arrived.
“Well, somebody gave it to me and I still do not have any idea who is it from,” Cy answered.
“Oh, my G! You have a stalker!!!! He must be very handsome, and hot and oh my God!!! This is it!!!! You better find him” Pots, very enthusiastic while thinking who the guy is — or it is really a guy?
Lexie and Phoebe looked at each other.
Phoebe felt a little bad about it. And Lexie suddenly sent him a message.
1 message received!
It’s okay. Don’t mind them. They actually do not know who the sender is. So that’s fine. Don’t feel bad. Let’s figure out who that is.
Ronnie: “Would you guys like to go out tonight? Catch up?”
Chase: “It’s fine with me. My treat!”
“Sounds great!” Matt said.
The boys went out for a drink. Rica went home already. The three girls are still at Jessica’s house. The teens went home already.
1 message received!
Phoeb: “Oh my g! What am I gonna do!!!!”
Called Lexie right away. RING! RING!
“Lex!!! the fudge. She texted me! She’s asking me if I can accompany her tomorrow. She needs to buy something for Pots’ wedding!”
“Girl! You know what to do. Push! Goodluck.” Lexie answered
“But I am still wondering who that asshole is?!” Phoebe talking about the flower sender.
“Phoeb I’m already sleepy. Let’s talk about it later.” CALL ENDED
“Sure! I’ll be there tomorrow before lunch?” Phoebe replied to Cyril’s message.
“Oh great! Thanks, Phoeb! You’re the best! See you tomorrow! Goodnight! Kisses!” Cy replied.
PHOEBE – can’t breathe.
Matt: “So Chase, how long do you plan to stay here? Or are you staying for good?”
“I am still actually trying to weigh things first. Well, I will, of course, have to stay for my kid Yanna, as you know, her mother and I separated a few years ago. Her mother already has a new husband and I am only responsible for looking after Yanna.” Chase answered.
“You are still good dad! I can’t believe Jessica let go of you in the past.” Ronnie butt in.
“Ah. Nope. It was actually my choice then. I never really noticed her. I was only into playing computer games way back and I was not into getting committed. And then one day, I saw a post from my friends on facebook and she was tagged in the photo. And I asked my friend if it’s Jessica. And they said yes. I tried finding her right away for some reason that I do not know, but things are getting really hard for the both of us. Fate leads us to a different path.” Grabbed a bottle of beer and took a sip.
“What do you mean?” Matt asked.
“Way back after I graduated from High school, I never saw her again. I got the chance to though, but she was with someone else that time. And when she was studying in college, I got the chance to see her at a bar in the metro but she was with her friends so I didn’t call her. When I added her on facebook and started talking to her again, I thought she isn’t interested in me anymore. And then I tried again when I got back home this month but something happened last week.”
Matt and Ronnie looked at each other.
“I invited her at home last week to hang out and catch up. My mom saw her and invited her over for dinner.” He explained.
“That’s it? I’m not seeing anything wrong with that.” Ronnie said
“But that’s just not it. That same night my sisters asked me to buy a drink for all of us and asked her to stay for a little while so we can bond more. It was okay at first. Heard my kid Yanna crying so I had to ran to her room and check her up. When I got back my sisters told me that she went home.” He added
“But what was the problem? I mean, why did she suddenly leave?”
“I got mad at my siblings I thought they did something bad to make her leave but I realized that Jess and my sisters are very close friends. So I tried calling her again. But no answer. Sent her a message and asked her if something is wrong. Until I received a message late that night.” Took a deep breath. “It was Jess saying she received a message from Donna telling her that she saw Jess at the gate of our house and that she wants to fix things with us so its better for Jess to back off.”
“Wow! That was close! So what did you do? What is your decision by the way?” Matt asked
“I actually do not have any idea. But as you know, Donna gave up on me the day I got back to Dubai and she chose to stay with a different guy only because she cannot stand a long distance relationship. Jessica has been there for me and is still a good friend of mine even if I never liked before.” Chase answered
“Well, dude, we know her well. Even if she really likes the person and even if she has already fallen in love with him, she’d still do the right thing. Well for at least that’s what we know about her.” Ronnie explained
“And she has gone through a lot but she never showed us that she is in pain. She is a very strong person. So you really wouldn’t know if she’s mad or not.” Matt added
The guys decided to just call it a night after a few more bottles. Left the bar and all went home.
The following morning.
“Wow! You are so early! Why are you so excited?! But that’s okay. So we can still hang out later after I finish what I need to buy.”
“Let’s go?” Phoebe asked Cy with a smile while hopping into the car
Phoebe: “Hmm? You ain’t holding your iPad?”
“Well, it’s just you and me inside the car. I don’t want to look rude reading and just let you drive. Besides, I might feel dizzy and let’s talk about stuff. You know what?” Stretched her left arm to the headrest of the car and sat comfortably. “I still do not have any idea who the flower sender is.”
“And are you interested in finding him?” Phoebe asked.
“Well only to find out who he is. Make friends or something? Or just to say thank you.” Cy answered
“If it is someone that you know, how would you feel about it?”
“Phoeb if it’s someone that I know, he must have a good reason why he chose to stay anonymous when he can just give the flowers to me personally.” Cy answered
1 new message received!
Jess, just woke up and stretching. Scratched her eyes. And yawn. Took her phone and checked it.
“Ugh. 7 missed calls and 9 messages received!? Who are these people?” Checked her messages one by one.
“Tiff, ugh okay. Uncle Chi. Ryan. Gilbert and uh..”
Chase: good morning.
Chase: are you up already?
Chase: Can we talk?
Chase: please hit me up when you are awake.
Chase: please lets talk.
Put the phone down and went back to sleep. Opened her eyes again. Took the phone again and replied to Chase.
“Okay. Let’s see later”
Yawning. “Ugh headache. This is what I hate the most. I really don’t like this feeling.” Yas
“Hey, girls! The queen is up! Morning! Hangover sucks. Let me know if we will go to Chelsea today. I will have to drop by the cafe first. I will also bring the invitation for my birthday.”
Ronnie’s Cafe – morning
“Morning! Oh. It’s just you?” Yas
“Ah Ma’am no, sir Ronnie is inside.” Guard
“Oh. Okay. Can I just leave this here and just give it to —
“Yassy??” Ronnie saw her.
“Ahm. Yeah. I just dropped by to give this to you. Invitation. For my ah bday this October.”
“Would love to be there,” Ronnie answered excitedly.
“Ugh. Kindly tell Rica to come to.” Yassy added.
“Ugh isn’t ah – the group bonding?” Ronnie asked.
“Isn’t she part of the group? She is your wife so I believe she has to be there too.”
“Ah okay. If you say so.”
“Alright, I will leave now. I have a lot of client meetings today.”
“Oh! Ugh. Yassy? Coffee?”
“Ah it’s okay I already had coffee at home.”
“I insist. Please stay. Even for 30 minutes.”
Yassy just smirked, smiled, put down her bag on the table and sat down the couch.
At the mall..
“Is there anything else that we need to buy here?” Phoebe asked Cyril
“No, I don’t think so. I think we still have time to hang out. Coffee? My treat” Cy offered.
“Oh no! It’s okay. I’ll pay for it. Where would you like to hang out?” Phoeb insisted
“Whatevs Phoeb. My treat okay? Come!” Grabbed Phoebe’s hand and ran to the coffee shop.
Matt: Message sent!
Baby, pls. talk to me. I am sorry about what happened yesterday. I just really felt bad because you were nagging me in the morning.
Tiff: 1 New Message received!
Read the message, put the phone down and took a bath.
Yassy shouting “Tiff!! Jess!! I am already here! Let’s go… It’s a 3-hour drive we have to go now” honk! honk!
“Coming! Let’s go, Jess!” Tiff headed to Jessica’s house this morning and waited for Yassy there. The girls are leaving for a 3-hour drive to see Chelsea. The boys really do not have any idea about this vacay.
“Mom, my friends will visit us today. We will be going out this noon to have coffee. Is there any errand that you would like me to run first?”
“Na-uh honey! You go, it’s fine. You can take a rest today and unwind. You deserve that.”
“Thanks, mom!” Chealsea answered
Who is Chelsea? Will the girls find out what happened to Matt and Mimi at Dom’s party? Who is the flower sender? What was Jessica’s reason why she suddenly felt off towards Chase? Is the 30-min talk at the cafe enough for Ronnie to tell Yas how he feels about getting jealous? Where is Jerry?
You love a person that’s why there’s love making.But you don’t say you LOVE a person only because you are having sex. There is a big difference. Love on top of everything. Love has no reason. You love a person because you LOVE a person. Love can be felt not seen.
LOVE means fighting for someone that you want to spend your life with.
LOVE means accepting the flaws and learning to embrace the weaknesses of each other.
LOVE means being ready to take challenges.
LOVE means being patient.
LOVE means seeing the bad in you and still feeling faultless about it.
LOVE means “I am fat, I have a darker skin, I am short” – and would still hear “You are perfect”
LOVE means RESPECT.
Do not be in a hurry in LOVE… Let love find you… Never commit if you are only seeing the best in a person… Never fall for the looks – consider it as a BONUS… Remember, beauty fades away – attitude stays.
Have the courage to show people that you can. Have the courage to show people that you are capable of doing something even if you were a failure in your past. Have the courage to take chances. Have the courage to learn and do not be afraid to try. Have the courage to trust yourself. And have the courage to FOLLOW your dreams.
When will I find him? When will I be happy again? When will this fear end? Am I really a strong person when it comes to love or I am just afraid of falling in love again? Why can’t we have the person that we want? Or why can’t we learn to love the person who is willing to love us? And is it really possible to love another woman?? Or Even when a man is already taken or married? Why?…. And Why can’t it be?
I met him in 2013. I used to be friends with the owner of the company where he used to work. Steve. Steve is a very quiet guy who comes to work early and leaves late. He obeys and follows the rules and was never late nor absent. In short he is a good employee. He comes home right after the shift. He has a wife. They got married in 2010 and they have been together for almost a decade now. In other words..? He is a good husband. Their life was so much different with how I spent my childhood days. Buying this and that in a snap. Travelling anywhere we want. In short I had a good life back then. I used to be a brat.. Which led me to this life that I have now. I am Jessica. A single mother. I actually don’t need to work. I can have anything that I want anytime. I party a lot. I drink a lot. I smoke a lot. I dress up the way I want but for the past 15 years of my kid, I never came home pregnant again. Why? Because I learned and I am afraid of falling in love again. My family is very tight. I don’t care if I am single because I am very close with my siblings and my parents. Sure am lucky to be JESSICA. But very unfortunate when it comes to love. And when can I find the one? When can I say I have found him? When will I stop searching for the right man? Well yes, believe it or not – I HAVE FOUND HIM. I HAVE FOUND THE PERFECT GUY ON EARTH. The one who can handle my attitude. The one who can manage my flaws. The one who learned to accept me for who I am… But why do I still have this question on my mind? Why can’t it be?
Pete: “Steve this is Jessica my friend. She used to be my co-worker and she’s really good at this field. But she still wants to learn more about how we do this job so I would like you to take care of her and make her feel like one of us. Alright? You have to make sure that she will learn from you because she will work in a different office.”
Steve: Surprised. Cannot look at me straight in the eyes. Shy. “ah. Sure sir!”
I was very jolly when I met him. Just like how I deal with other people. Very confident and very enthusiastic. “Hi! I’m Jessica and it’s nice to meet you!”
He was so shy on our first meeting. But for some reason, I was very excited to work with him.
Pete: “Team, we will be having our summer outing this March and I would like all of you to be there. Jessica it is just near your place so I want you to be there too.”
“Hi Pete! I actually don’t know if I could come over because I am still here at home attending to my kid. But I’ll try to be there tonight.”
“Please do so. The whole team is excited to bond with you. They find you really funny, enthusiastic and well yeah intimidating. But I told them that you are nice LOL! See you later!”
Shoot! It’s almost 10! I fell asleep gosh! Took the car keys and headed on to the area.
Tina, the other employee was singing when I arrived. And everybody was shocked staring at me.
“Hi Pete! Sorry I’m late. Had to drive for an hour and dropped by a convenient store for you guys. Wine for everyone!”
Whispered. “Hey Tina, why was everybody staring at me when I arrived? I don’t think they like me.”
“Jes, they all like you. I swear to God, they are all shy. They were talking awhile ago and they said that they find you really amazing. You came here wearing a tank top, shorts, sneakers, without make up, very simple but elegant. And you smell really good! They are actually intimated but they are all excited to bond with you”
“But I will not stay for too long. I have work tomorrow. So I have to go home early. I am not even planning to stay overnight. I just really had to bring the wine for you guys.”
After an hour.
“Hey! Are you okay?” He asked.
“Yes. All good! Thanks!”
“Care for a drink?” He offered.
“Sure! Thanks!” I answered.
After two hours.
“Hahaha really? That’s hilarious! Like I have never tried that in my life! Like that’sone hell of a roller coasted ride!”
4:00 in the morning. Everybody was in the pool playing. Two were talking on the side. Three were drinking on the other side and others were just enjoying the warm water.
And us? We found ourselves talking on the edge of the pool.
“So, how long have you been working with Pete?”
“Been working with him for the past 6 years and everything is just, just..okay.”
“I see. Well, I think I have to call it a night. I really have to go. I said I’ll stay here for only 30 minutes but it’s already 4:30 in the morning. I will have to drive myself back home for an hour. I’ll catch you later! And by the way. Thanks for today. Thanks for entertaining me. I had fun talking with you.”
Headed back home and took a nap for a few hours and woke up to work.
“Hey Tina! Are you home yet?”
“Hey Jes! Yeah. Just got back home. We slept late, woke up late and left the resort late. But everything’s good! What’s up?”
“Kindly tell everybody thank you and I had fun last night. I just can’t stay any longer even if I wanted to. You know I work in a different office and my schedule is different so, I really had to go home. And hmm by the way. Kindly tell Steve thanks for entertaining me last night. When it was supposed to be you — attending to me haha but it’s okay. It was nice knowing him.”
“You like him?”
“Huh? Yes! No! I mean. Yes. As a friend. What the fudge are you saying?!”
“Hmm okay. Just making sure. Jes? He’s a married man. I just want to remind you.”
“I ah. Hmm it’s okay. My pleasure. I actually ahmmm.. Was doubting if.. I’d add you on facebook ‘coz you’re a rich kid and ah.. I don’t know. I really find you intimidating. But hey! I know that you are nice. I just feel like, you’d snob me since I’m just a simple person.”
“Hey! What’s up with you? Hahaha whatever it is that you find difficult in me, don’t mind it. I am not snobbish. I don’t care if someone is rich or poor. I don’t mind if a person is cool or not. Besides, I am not rich. My family is. But not me.”
“You are the coolest person I have ever met Jes! I’m glad I have met you”
And it all started there. It was at 2 in the afternoon when we first had our exchange of thoughts and words through chatting. And then? It never ended. We talked and talked like we’ve known each other for a decade now. He’s nice and I really find him cool. Regardless of his family background and having a wife, all I cared about then was to make friends with him.
“Hahaha that was cool! You’re really a nice person. I envy your bf. He must be very lucky to have you!”
“Boyfriend? Haha I have been single for a long time! You silly!”
“Oh! Wh! Wait what?! You’re single? Bu.. But why? I mean, you are gorgeous, you are a very kind person, very down to earth, and you are a very independent woman. How come you are single?”
“Question is. Is there something wrong being single? I am not gorgeous. I also have flaws. I only have the personality. I would prefer men liking or loving me for who I am, learning to accept my foible. Beauty fades, attitude stays.”
Tic toc tic toc tic toc.
“Gosh we have been chatting for almost 14 hours. God! Hahaha world record!”
“Yeah. And I learned a lot of things from you. Thank you Ms. Beautiful. Go to bed now.”
“Yup! I also had fun. You too. Take a rest now.”
“Goodnight” he said.
“Have a good sleep.”
“Whow! What? Hahahaha” I was surprised. He called me online right after saying goodnight. “Thought it’s time to say goodnight?”
“Hmmm yeah. Goodnight.”
“Then why did you call?”
“Goodnight. To say goodnight?”
“Alright goodnight you silly young man! End the call now.”
“No, don’t end the call.” He said.
“Ugh. Okay. Then how can I sleep? If we are on the line?”
“Just sleep. I’ll ah.. Stay here. Just go to sleep. And do not end the call.”
“Awww. Okay. Haha. Goodnight.”
After two minutes.
“Hmmm you still up?” I asked.
“Ssshhhh just sleep. I am just here. I’ll stay until you get to fall asleep.”
10 in the morning. Fuck my phone is like overheating. And guess what?! He is still there on the line. Checked my phone right away!
“Ugh. Hello? Are you up?”
“Good morning Ms. Gorgeous. Yes. I slept late. I waited for you to snore so I’d know that you are already sleeping. But you didn’t. Then I woke up early to be the first person to greet you good morning.”
“Wow. Just wow. You are the craziest! Did you even sleep? Like. Geez. That’s a 5-hour call and you didn’t even have enough sleep.”
“It’s okay. I just want to see you first thing in the morning. Get up now! Take a shower. I’ll take a shower too. Please have breakfast and then text me when you’re done. And by the way! I’m sorry I did something that might get me into trouble. I kept on staring at you this morning. You really look wonderful while sleeping. Wish one day I could wake up with you.” he said.
“Goodness gracious! The reason why I don’t sleep with someone is because I don’t like them seeing me sleeping! Gosh. Hahaha you are ampf. Whatever! Get up now!”
“Hmmm 10 minutes please? Just stay here with me for 10 more minutes”
By the way. That’s a video call. And it continues in the next few days.
It became a routine then. Waking up together. Eating together.ONLINE. Texting. Calling each other. Sending sweet messages and working together.. Again..? ONLINE. And then repeat.
Few weeks later..
“Hmmm babe? When will I see you again?” he asked.
“Hmmm you have been seeing me everyday.”
“Online. hugging you online. Kissing you goodnight online. I want to hug you. Like a real hug” he said.
It was Friday then.
“Hmmm I’ll see you tomorrow?”
“For reallllll???” He sounded really excited.
“Do not drive your car. I’ll pick you up”
It was the first meeting right after the last. And it was the first right after we started the thing.
We were so happy. Like a real couple. Holding hands while driving. Hugging each other. Eating together and kissing like there’s no tomorrow.
“If only.” He whispered while hugging me.
“Huh? What do you mean?” I asked.
“Nada. Just. Forget it. What do you want to eat? Come on! Let’s have lunch! Coffee or something?”
“You know I am always on a diet. I am really not a fan of eating. But okay, ofcourse I’ll go with you.”
It was 4 months then without having rice. I was on a strict diet until..
“Nope! You have eat this. And this. And this. And this! These are all yours okay? Do not deprive yourself from eating. I like you the way you are. You don’t have to go on a diet. And I will not get tired of reminding you to eat and eat and eat.”
He was the only person who made me love food again.
We were so happy forgetting all our problems. He was so sweet preparing food for me. Waking up with a cup of coffee and cigars on the table. Preparing every meal for me. Paying for everything that we spent. Treating me like a princess that nobody has ever made me feel. He knows how to manage my flaws. We never argued. We were always laughing. We were always singing together. We were.. We JUST were extremely happy not thinking that he has a wife. And yes. The wife. Where is the wife?
(Brief background) His wife left him right after they got married. She had to work in Europe. She comes home visiting him only once a year. For a couple of weeks. In short, she decided to just spend time earning money instead of taking good care of his husband.
And now I figured. He found everything that he was looking for in a wife. Too bad, he has found it — in me.
Until it’s time to say goodbye.
While we were hugging in front of a beautiful view on the rooftop.
“Babe, I will be going home soon. Thanks for this wonderful bonding. I really don’t want to go home yet. But, I have to.” I was a little sad then.
“Ssshhh.” Held my face close to his.
“Babe? Thank you. I have never felt this happy even before. And I am just very glad that even if there are these men who are longing to have you, you chose me over them. And I am the luckiest person on earth right now.” Kissed me on the forehead and whispered. “If only I could just wake up each morning with you, I would.” Teary eyed.
“Babe?why?” he asked.
“What do you mean why?”
“Why are you so gorgeous?”
“Fudge. Whatever. I am not gorgeous. I only have the personality. I told you.”
He loves asking me the question WHY, in the middle of somewhere, in the middle of a serious convo, in the middle of the night. He asks me WHY like more than 50 times a day. Only to say, I am gorgeous in my own little way.
Went back home. Days and weeks passed by. And the routine continues. Until one day.
“Steve. Can I see you in my office?” Pete called his attention.
Headed there and was surprised with what happened.
“Steve? Why Jes? Why do you have to cheat? What is wrong with you? Give me 5 reasons why Jes? Why not other girls? She’s not like that. She won’t fall for someone who is already married. I know her so well. We have been friends for a long time and she is not that type of woman. She knows her limitations. What have you done? Why? Somebody saw you guys together. You are a married man. Whether or not your wife is far from you and done you wrong many times, you still should not cheat on her.”
“Sir? One question. Why not Jessica?”
And the shoddy life started. Felt like my world fell apart.
“What do we do now?” I asked him. “Steve, everybody’s mad at us. I don’t know what to do.”
“Babe? Stay. I don’t know how to handle this. Everybody thinks I am the most miserable person on earth. Please stay. You’re the only person that I have now.”
Since then, I never smiled again. I stayed. But the pain in my heart is still there. The routine continues. But little by little we both tried our best to give up on each other without even talking about it. Cold nights. Cold convos. Cold scenes. No more hugs. No more kisses. “Online”
“Steve? I think, it’s time to say goodbye. Fix all your problems. Prepare yourself. Be ready for what could happen. You see, you are the very first person whom I consider the perfect guy for me. You can manage my flaws. You can make me stay at home. You are the only one who made me sleep early. Who made me eat despite of the strict dieting. You are the only person whom I’m scared of not seeing and talking everyday. The only person who would always check what I’m wearing before I leave the house. I never got hurt. I never felt any pain for the past few months……… Only now. And if we will not end this now, I might fall for you too much that I won’t be able to handle it anymore. You do not belong to me. You belong to your wife. And it might hurt us more if we will continue to be like this. I want you to forget me. I want you to give up on me and not your wife.”
“Babe.. No. Stay. Please stay.”
I tried my best not to entertain his messages anymore that it’s already killing me inside. We still update each other though. But not like before. Until..
“Hi babe! Hmm how’s your day?” He sent me a message.
“Steve!!! Please stop calling me babe! We’re over okay?? Stop calling me! Stop sending me sweet messages! Like you don’t have to fuckin update me every fuckin day’ I don’t want to receive any messages from you anymore! So please?”
I was never really mad. I was crying when I sent him the message. I just really need to respond that way. So he’d stop. It felt like saying things that you really don’t mean to. Saying things and feeling the other way around. And that day I felt like, I just died.
“Babe, I know that you are just saying that but that is not what you want. Please stay. Stay a little longer. I am leaving soon. My application was approved. And I only want to spend the last few days with you. So please stay. I’m flying to Europe soon.”
I died twice that day.
I wanted to stay. But if I’d stay, it will hurt us more. STILL.. I stayed.
“Hi. Have you finished all the documents? Were you able to finish all the papers today? Have you bought things for your wife? Buy her things so you’d have something to give her when you arrive.” I tried my best to be stay.. As a friend.
“Why?” He asked. “Why are you gorgeous?”
“Steve, buy something for her family too.” I tried not to entertain things about us.
“Babe?” He was crying. Over the phone.
“Why are you so kind? Why do have to do this? I know that I have been hurting you so so much. That it’s also killing me inside. You are just an awesome woman. I don’t know why God gave you to me and now God is getting you back from me.”
“Steve? God has his own reasons. You see, I met you because I have been single for a long time. And maybe He said, Jes, I know that you have been happy for a long time and you never got hurt. I will touch your heart for a little while. I will have to make you feel hurt again. Just a pinch in the heart. We have to make it soft again. And then He said, Steve, you are so weak. You have been nice to people. You always say yes even if you’ve been hurt many times. Only because you were not strong. And I will use you as an instrument to teach a hard headed and heart and to learn from a strong woman.”
He cried a lot. And so I died again.
After a few days. We both decided to see each other for the last time. I went to visit him but with my friends this time.
“Hey! We are already here in the hotel. Text me or call me when you are already on your way.” Texted him.
“hahahaha no way Liza! Okay strike a pose! Let’s try a different one.”
My friends and I were having a photoshoot. When I glanced on my right side, there’s this guy standing and staring at me from a great distance.
“Oh! Wait guys.” I was surprised. Went down to where he was standing. Pretended that everything was okay and that I am not even hurt. Took something in the room of the hotel and went in to his car.
“Why didn’t you call me? I told you to call me when you’re on your way. And why were you not even calling my attention that you are already there. How many minutes have you been waiting there?” I asked.
“Nothing. I have been there for almost 20 minutes. Staring at you. Praying to God. Bless this woman that I am looking at right now. Give her the best man on Earth. I love this woman so much that I can’t even have. Please take away all the pain in her heart.” He cried.
“Okay! I see. Ugh. Yeah. By the way, I know that you didn’t even buy something for yourself. So take this with you and use it.” Tried my best not to cry. I pretended that I really don’t care about what he was saying. But I died again. “Can you drive me to the market? I just need to buy something.”
While driving. I kept on singing party songs and trying not to keep the drama in the car.
“Here! Okay just wait in the car. I’ll be very quick!”
“Hey! How much is this? Hahaha oh my!” Trying to keep the mood happy. Dealing with the vendors laughing. And then I caught him. Caught him inside the car taking a video of me.
“Okay I’m done. Let’s go!” Heading back to the hotel. He held my hand.
“I took a video of you. I want to see you laughing and smiling until my last day here in the US”
For two hours of being together. He has been staring at me. I can see the pain in his eyes. I can see that he’s hurting. Only because he never learned the art of pretending how to show people that everything is just fine. And that is what I have been doing.
“Okay. We are here. Hmmm thank you. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being the perfect person that you can be. I am sorry for falling in love. I never intended to ruin anybody’s relationship. Please forget everything about me. I don’t want you to have comparisons when you see her. Please take care of yourself. Learn from this mistake and never do it again. Coz if you’d do it again, the next woman might not be like me, might not understand and might just ruin your whole life and relationship with your wife.”
He did not say a word. And just kissed me. And so I kissed him back. We were kissing in the car. While tears kept on falling.. Then. I pushed him away from me.
“It’s time to say goodbye Steve.”
He hugged me for one last time. Took my face and kissed me again.
“Go now! Leave.” in a shaky voice.
I was looking at him while he was walking back in the car. Then he went back to me.
Crying. Kissed me again. Hugged me so tight. And for the last time. Kissed me on the forehead. His tears were falling on my head. Still I tried my best not to cry again. I don’t want to show him that I am hurting. And as he was driving away from me, looking at the side mirror, I only smiled at him. And when the car is already far from me, TEARS FELL DOWN on my face.
He sent me a message when he got back home.
“Babe? I never really wanted to let go of you. I really don’t want to. But it seems like you have already decided to let go. I can’t stop crying.”
It was so sudden, that I woke up one morning and it’s the day that I will die more than 5 times.
As I opened my eyes. Saw his messages on my phone.
“It’s time. I only have this one last day left. Later tonight, I won’t be seeing your messages anymore. I won’t be hearing your laughter and giggles anymore. I won’t be reading your good mornings and goodnights anymore. I won’t be feeling your hugs and kisses anymore. And the hardest part is, Today, I will die more than 10 times because today I will be losing the perfect woman that I met in my entire life. Thank you. Thank you for staying even if you are already hurting. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for making me happy in the past few months. Thank you loving me the best way you can. Thank you for being you. And thank you for letting me go. Because I cannot let you go. And given the chance. I will not let you go.”
I cried many times. Tried my best to make him feel better. And just made the convo light. He kept on updating me that day. Telling me that he is already inside the airport and that he’s about to leave in a few minutes.
“I’m scared. I don’t know how to feel right now.” he said.
“Stay calm. Everything’s gonna be alright. Pray. I will never forget you. Thank you for everything. And I will never get tired of thanking you and praying for you and your wife. The next time I see you, I want to see you with your wife and kids.”
“Babe? THANK YOU. I will never get tired of thanking you. I will forever be thankful of having you in my life. And given the chance to have the this roller coaster ride again, I’D STILL DO IT WITH YOU.”
“Steve? always remember that I am just here. I will always be here for you as a friend. Given the chance, God forbid, but yes, If I’d get to see you again? And you’re single? I’ll make sure that I have a ring with me and I’ll be the one to propose to you. I swear I’d do that. hahaha”
“Jes? Babe? Ms. Gorgeous? This is a mistake for everybody, yes. But for me, YOU ARE THE GREATEST MISTAKE THAT I WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF COMMITTING AGAIN and AGAIN. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST MISTAKE AND THE MOST WONDERFUL WOMAN THAT I HAVE EVER MET.THANK YOU”
“I never admitted it, I never said it. But yes, I learned to love you and I will never REGRET everything about US. It was ONE HELL OF A ROLLER COASTER RIDE! Thanks for this adventure. You will be the first and the last ADVENTURE that I will ever take. And if not with you, I won’t dare do it again. I will miss you.”
Tic toc tic toc.. 10ish
“Hello?” I tried not to cry.
“Babe?” He was crying.
“I’m now about to get in the plane. I will miss you. THANK YOU.”
“Steve? No. Thank you.”
“Why are you so gorgeous?” crying.
And then I just smiled. And for the very first time. I answered. “Because you made me feel like I am the happiest person on earth. I am gorgeous because of you. Thank you. Goodbye.” And I quickly ended the call.
Sometimes, we find love in our own little way. Sometimes, love finds us. Sometimes, we get to fall in love with the right person at the wrong time. Sometimes, we fall in love with the person who cannot love us back. There are – SOME – who have already found the right person for them and are now living with their happy ending.
BUT.. MOST OF THE TIME — we meet people, who will teach us, who will learn from us, who will leave a mark and who will come back for us. If it is meant to happen, God will find his way to make it happen.
I cried for a couple days only because I got used to waking up in the morning seeing his messages. Talking with him over the phone. Or maybe because I just missed him. Oh well! I think it’s time to find the next in line. I’ll get ready for that. Get up Jes! make yourself busy. You will have to attend an event next month. You silly young lady! Go! Go!
After a month..
“Hey! What’s up? haha how have you been?” was talking to my friend that I didn’t get to see for a couple of years.
“Hey dude! Who is she?” oooohhhh! I think he’s next in line..
TO BE CONTINUED. Book II soon.. Thanks for reading! ^^
DISCLAIMER: This is a story of another friend who requested to write a book for her. It has AGAIN a little twist though. Let’s find out more of this new guy in BOOK II.
”Why can’t it be.. Why can’t it be the two of us..Why can’t we be lovers.. Only friends
You came along At a wrong place, at a wrong time..You came along At a wrong place, at a wrong time..Or was it me”
“We sometimes fight for love, because we choose to fight for it — Even if we know that we will never win it..”
………………………..It was 10 in the evening when I decided to take a bath. I wonder why I have been so tired the whole day when all I did was just to sit and work in the office. Took the towel and headed on to the bathroom.
Slowly dipped into the hot tub and.. ugh.. feels great. This is what I always do when I am tired… I would always choose to stay in the tub for an hour or two when I am tired or stressed at work than to go out and party. Staring at the ceiling with random things on my mind. What might have been? What could have been? What if? Shoulda, woulda, coulda. “brain drain” yes! I think I need a break. Took me some time to have finally decided on what to do…
Done! And yeah. okay, that’s it. Now, where did I put my laptop?? Where to?? Hmmm with or without someone?
“Jenny? Would you like to come with me tomorrow?Planning to go to Cebu….Oh! Okay.. I’ll see you next time then.”
“Hey Julie what’s up! You free tomorrow? Would you like to unwind? Let’s book a flight to Cebu tomorrow!!!! Ugh, I see. Okay. Maybe next time..”
“Pete!!! Want to go boy hunting tomorrow? Let’s fly to Cebu! It’ll be fun… Oh sure! You gay! Let’s catch up soon..”
Alright then, I guess it’s going to be just me… Again.. The hardest part of being single.
Booked! 10 am, March 8, 2016. See you tomorrow Cebu! Goodnight everyone…
7 in the morning… prepped up and headed to the airport…
“Good morning ladies and gentlemen! Welcome aboard. Flight 507 bound for Cebu. Please fasten your seatbelt and refrain from smoking while the NO SMOKING sign is on. From Captain Lopez and the crew, it is our pleasure to serve you today. If there is anything you need to make your flight enjoyable, please let us know. Thank you.”
“Oh Dear Lord, thank you for this day. Thank you for making my life awesome. I may not be that happy..for now.. because I am single but I sure am grateful for everything that you provide me. I am very blessed with family and everything that I have. Thank you for all of this. Please bless this flight.”
Took my headset, played a song and I fell into sleep.
“Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Cebu. Local time is 11:15 in the morning. For your safety and comfort, please remain seated with your seatbelt fastened until the Captain turns off the Fasten your seatbelt sign. This will indicate the sign that we have already parked at the gate and that is it safe for you to move about.
Please check around your seat for any belongings you may have brought on board with you and please use caution when opening the overhead bins, as heavy articles may have shifted around during the flight.
If you require deplaning assistance, please remain seated until all other passengers have already deplaned and an attendant will come to you and will be pleased to assist you.
On behalf of Cebu Pacific, Captain Lopez and his crew, Thank you for flying with us. We are all looking forward to seeing you again in your next flight. Have a great day ahead and enjoy your vacation.”
Oh great! Finally. When I was about to deplane, I accidentally dropped my cell phone. Oh crap! ugh. So clumsy!
“Here..” and smiled…
“Oh! Why.. Thank you.” A guy suddenly handed me my phone. Who is he? He looks cute though. Anyway, I got off the plane and headed to pick up my luggage.
12:00 in the afternoon…
“I think it’s better to have lunch first. I need to eat first.”
Inhale..exhale… This is life! I have never felt this for a long time… Okay.. So, I better go to the hotel first and I’ll have lunch there.
A van came to pick me up and drive me to the hotel. I had a reservation at The Shang Mactan.
On my way to the hotel, the driver asked.
“Ma’am welcome to Cebu. Kayo lang po ba? Taga saan po kayo?” (Ma’am, welcome to Cebu, are you alone? Where are you from?”
“Yes, ako lang kuya.” (Yes, I’m alone on this trip.” I answered. He’s very nice to ask and chat with me to make me feel at ease while traveling to the hotel.
“Ma’am andito na po tayo. Sana po mag enjoy po kayo dito sa Cebu” (Ma’am we just arrived at the hotel. I hope you enjoy your stay here”
“Sure. Thanks!” Gave him a tip and smiled at him.
“Hi! Reservation for Atty. Yasiera Mae Rondillo.”
“Hi, Atty.! Welcome to Shang Mactan. Here’s the key to your deluxe room 407. Enjoy your stay here!”
Smiled and headed to my room right away. As I lay me down to bed, I thought of what the driver asked me a while ago. “Are you alone on this trip?” I wonder why most people ask if a person goes on a trip alone. What is wrong with going on a trip alone? Anyhow, welcome to Cebu Yassy.. Let’s do this!
Took a quick shower and prepped up for today’s activity. White tee goes with a pair of denim shorts and hmm how about a nude pair of gladiator sandals?! Alright, that would do. Oh and… hmm my hat! My co-worker Liza gave this to me two months ago. So where to first? Oh, my I haven’t eaten yet. I almost forgot. Locked the hotel room and went to the reception. “Hi, I wonder if there is someone available who can assist me for today’s trip?” “Of course Atty. please have a seat and I will call the one available to accompany you today.” “Thank you”
After a couple of minutes. “Ma’am, your driver has arrived. Just tell him the places that you would like to visit or see. And he will take you there. Have fun!”
Thanked the guard and winked at him. When I was about to approach the van, I saw the driver smiling at me. Opened the door and said, “Hello Ma’am ako po ulit ito.” (Hello, Ma’am it’s me again) “Oh hello sir! It’s nice to see you again today.” “Ma’am saan nyo po gusto muna magpunta?”(Ma’am where would like to go first?)
“Sir, right at this moment? I actually do not have any idea. I haven’t eaten anything yet though. But I don’t really know what to do first… I just want to.. I just want to take a break… I don’t want to think of anything..”
“Sige po ma’am, alam ko na po kung saan ko kayo unang dadalin” (Alright ma’am, I think I already know where you need to go first” And he smiled.
I do not know if I would feel bad or scared of where this man could take me to, but all I can feel that time was, he is a good person.
It took us a little time before heading on to the place. Feels like the day is getting a little boring. I dunno if it’s because I still am tired or just because I am overwhelmed with how good Cebu is. Anyhow, I think the driver felt that I am a little quiet and he asked me some questions.
“Ma’am wag nyo pong mamasamain ang aking tanong. Sa tagal ko na po sa trabahong ito, pang-walo pa lang po kayo sa taong naihatid ko ng solo dito sa Cebu, wala po ba kayong boyfriend? asawa? pamilya? Pasensya na po. Napansin ko lang po na para kayong malungkot” (Ma’am I hope you don’t mind. I’ ve been working in this field for a long time and you’re the 8th person that I have served here going on a trip alone. Don’t you have a boyfriend? husband? family? I am sorry ma’am, I just noticed that it seems like you are a little sad)”
Staring outside the window of the car, I smiled and answered. “Ok lang ako kuya, sanay akong mag isa. Madalas nagbabakasyon ako kasama ng pamilya, mga kaibigan. Pero mas madalas solo. Biglaan na plano lagi. Nag eenjoy naman ako so far.” (I’m okay sir. I’m used to it. I usually spend my vacation with my family, close friends. But most of the time, I go alone. Unplanned. But I I enjoy it so far.)
He just gave me a quick smile while nodding. I bet he believed I really am enjoying my trip alone.
A few minutes later…
“Ma’am, andito na po tayo. Sasakay po kayo ng bangka. Mga 30-40 minutes po. Hindi nyo po pagsisihan ang lugar na ito. Sana’y ma enjoy nyo po ang tour ninyo. Welcome to SUMILON ISLAND ma’am. (Ma’am, we just arrived. You will take a boat ride for 30-40 minutes. You won’t regret this trip ma’am. I hope you’ll be able to enjoy this tour. Welcome to SUMILON ISLAND ma’am)
When as I was about to pick up my things, he opened the door of the van and took my bags.
“Wow! Just wow!”
The first time I had a glance at it, I fell in love right away. It suddenly changed my mood. Thanked the driver for taking me here. And smiled.
Inhale.. Exhale.. Wow.. This is life…
Took the boat ride and embraced each and every minute of what I am seeing… After 30-40 minutes, we have finally arrived at Sumilon Island.
Wow. Thank you, Lord, for this wonderful view. You are just amazing.
Looked for a spot and unrolled my tube skirt given by my mom when she visited Boracay a year ago and sat down.
Wow! I still can’t believe there is a spot here in the Philippines like this. Oh well, ME-TIME starts now.
Took my tank top and shorts off. Wore my sunglasses, sat down and thought of random things…
“Excuse me? Yas? Yasiera Mae? Atty. Rondillo? The famous Yassy Rondi of batch 1996? Jerry!! Jerry Cecillo of batch 1995. Remember? The slim boy..? Ronie’s best friend?.. Hmm, The bully guy…Okay.. I think I talk too much..?”
Giggled. “But of course! I remember you. I will never forget you.”
FLASHBACK! August of 2001…
“I know! hahaha But baby, I think it is better if we just hang out with them later?! What do you think?”
“Yeehee, you want to spend more time with me?!”
“YOU WISH! hahaha kiddin! Of course, and you have been hanging out with them since last Tuesday because of basketball. Let’s watch a movie first… please, please, please?”
“Alright, baby. You win!”
Back to the beach.. 2016…
“What’s up? How are you?”
“All good! How are you? We never heard anything about you hmm after the issue.”He said
“Oh! Yeah. Right after I graduated from Law, I went back to the US and stayed there for a couple of years. Until my grandmother died in 2006, so I went back home here. I took the bar exam in 2008 and started working in 2009 in Makati. I now have my law firm.” I answered.
“Okay wait! So you mean, you’ve been here since 2006?”
“What the! Wait, wait! Are you with someone? Family? Friends? Husband? Boyfriend?” He asked.
Giggled. “This is the second time someone asked me if I am with someone on this trip. And the same answer, I am alone on this trip. And still single.”
“For real?? Okay. Ugh. I have no idea, what this is all about, or why this is happening. But is it okay, if I invite you for dinner later?”
“I don’t see anything wrong with that?” I answered.
“Great! Where do you stay?”
“I am staying at Shang mactan, this is supposed to be a day trip, but I might just look for a lodging here then I will just, I dunno, whatever the plan is later, just let me know.”
“Cool! Can I have your number? catch up maybe?”
“Sure! It’s 09178925763”
“I’ll call you later! See you! I’ll just get back to the friends and I’ll call you later!”
“Alright. Laters!” Smiled and started playing some songs on my phone. Wondered, what was it all about?
FLASHBACK.. November of 2004…
“I know Ronnie! But, listen, okay. it was my fault.I know it was my fault. Come on baby, why can’t you just forgive me. I mean, it wasn’t really a big deal. I know that hurt your feelings, but do you really think I would do that? Do you really think I can do that? Or do you really think I WILL DO THAT?? Of course not! It’s just that, I think, you are stressed out at work and your mom is a little annoying these days, and that you lost your wallet. I just.. I just think you need to spend time alone. And that I think, you are experiencing these things because of me..”
“Yassy? Please. Can you just… Can you just leave me alone?”
“What is wrong with you!? It wasn’t intentional! I mean, please baby, okay I am so sorry. I never really wanted to leave. I won’t do that. I was just thinking about you and that maybe your life became a mess when we started dating. You lost your wallet, you forgot your monthly report at work, you lost the game twice, your car’s a mess, you.. you.. your life just became different when I came. “
“Look! We have been dating for almost 3 months now. We act like as if we really are a couple, we may not be committed to each other anymore but I learned to love you. I am used to seeing you every day, you are aware that I ain’t ready for any relationship yet, since the day Jenny died. It has always been very traumatic every time I get to fall in love with a person because I don’t want the person to leave me. And here you are, telling me that you will leave me for a moment only because you think that you are the bad luck in my life! What the fuck yassy!”
“Baby, all I want you to say is.. STAY..” I cried.
“Hi, Yassy! Jerry here. I’ll see you at 7ish? I’ll just prep up..Same spot..And let’s decide there..”
I stayed at a coffee shop somewhere there. A small spot where I can stay to check my email. Okay. I guess I will have to go there now. And wait for Jerry.
As I was approaching the spot where Jerry saw me this noon, there was this guy walking towards me. Familiar. Heart’s beating fast. Sweating. I think I know him, I’m just not sure.
“Hey, Yassy.” Jerry greeted me. “Are you okay? Seems like you are looking for someone from a distance?” He asked.
“Ugh. Nah, I.. I just thought I..Never mind..”
“Hi, Miss..” I suddenly heard a familiar voice. And looked behind me. Shocked.
“Yassy, I hope you don’t mind. I also invited him here because I’m actually with him and the rest of the gang.”
I was still surprised and cannot even say a word. It’s the guy from the past. It’s him. Everything stopped for a moment.
FLASHBACK.. December 2004..
“Jerry?! It’s okay. I am on the verge of giving up even if I don’t want to. But, I.. I think it’s time. I mean, I have done my part. I never wanted to give up on him. I learned to love him. I am happy with him. I don’t understand why he can’t even forgive me. It’s not really a big deal. Been saying sorry for the past 3 weeks. He doesn’t even respond to my messages. He doesn’t even answer my calls. I have texted him many times. I give up! Or. No, I never really wanted to. But he’s pushing me away. And I have been suffering from this pain since the day he decided to let go of me. Yes, we are not committed to each other. But I know and I can feel that he has already fallen in love. Or maybe, maybe it’s just me who thinks that way. And I think it’s time, to save some for myself.”
“Yassy? Yassy? Is everything okay?”
“Oh! Yeah. I’m sorry. I was just. I was just surprised. Yeah! Of course! So what’s the plan?” I was so surprised that I got caught staring at him. After 12 years… After 12 freaking years… I never thought I’d still see this guy. Indeed, a blast from the past!
“Yeah. Okay, where d’you wanna go?” Jerry asked.
“I actually have no idea. Maybe we can just find a spot and hang out there.” I suggested.
“Okay, here. I’ll leave you guys here, and I’ll buy some beer… If.. It’s fine with you guys? Ronnie? Yassy?”
“Ah yeah of course. It’s…It’s okay.” I answered quickly.
“Oh sure. Yes. Of course. I’d love to. I mean, yeah no, no worries.” Ronnie said.
Jerry left us and there was silence for a while.
“So,” both of us said, trying to open up a convo.
“Ah yeah, you first.” He said
“No, no you first,” I said.
“Ah, no go ahead! You first.”
“Ugh. So yeah. What’s ah, what’s up? It’s been for more than a decade since I last saw you. How’s life?”
“Yeah. More than a decade now… Since the day I died twice.” He answered.
Confused. “I’m sorry?”
“Yes. The day you I pushed you away, I died. And the day you went to the US… I died twice.”
I stood up right away. I never really wanted to talk about it. But he took my hand.
“Yassy! Please. Give me a chance. Listen first.”
That moment, I wanted to cry, like as if, it took me back from the past. I felt the same pain I felt 12 years ago.
“Yassy, the day I decided to let go of you..”
FLASHBACK.. Last week of November in 2004..
“Dude! Ano ba kaseng problema mo? Ang babaw kase tsong. Nag sorry naman na si Yassy. Ano pa bang problema dun?” (Dude! What is wrong with you? It’s so petty! Yassy already said sorry. What else do you want?)
“Jerry, hindi mo naiintindihan. Hayaan mo na sya.” (Jerry, you will never understand. Just let her.)
“Dude! She’s already having a hard time. She’s been crying every day. Goes out a lot drinking! She will take her exams this week. You have to understand. The person is taking up law!”
“That day, Jerry kept on telling me about how things are getting really difficult for you already. And I didn’t mind.”
TEARS want to fall from my eyes that very moment while he was telling me about what happened.
“I asked him not to butt into the situation. It was my choice. It was my choice to let go of you. Because I was afraid. I was afraid that I might just not be able to handle it again, if… If you suddenly leave me. It was hard for me to do it too. See you were taking up Law that time. Your life was so okay. Your life was fun and never dull. Until I came. My life was dull and boring.. Until you came. You put colors to my life. I was so happy… I was so happy that led me to become so afraid of dying again. I was so afraid that I might commit suicide if I’d get to fall in love more than the way I felt with Jenny. See when she died from the car accident, I almost killed myself for not eating almost every day. But you pulled me up and helped me recover.”
“Ronnie? I don’t think this is the right time to talk about this. I’m sorry”
For some reason, I wanted to stay and listen to him but my mind is telling me no… No, Yassy. Leave now. I left while tears are falling from my eyes.
“Yassy!!! Yassy wait!!!”
“Dude!? Wha’ what happened? Why’d she leave? Dude what did you do? Ugh. you idiot! Wait up! Hold these bottles, I’ll chase her…………… ugh no. Go chase her! You! ugh! Go! Now!”
“Yassy! Yassy wait!.. Yassy please… Let’s talk. I know that you have already moved on.. that you are already happy now, having a good life, good job, your own house, your own car, a lucky husband…I just..”
“I.. don’t.. have.. a husband..” I whispered.
“Huh? Wai’what? boyfriend maybe?” he asked. “Yassy, even for just a minute. Just give me a chance.”
“Ok. I will give you 5 minutes to explain even if it won’t make any sense anymore.”
“Thank you! Thank you! I am sorry. It was my bad. I was afraid that time. I was afraid, not knowing that being afraid can cause me more pain. I never thought of trusting you instead.”
“Okay. Can I leave now?” I didn’t know what else to say, turned my back and just left.
Found a small bar.. looked for a spot and ordered a couple of booze…
Singer: “Remember when we held on in the rain, the nights we almost lost it.. Once again, we can take the night into tomorrow… Living on feelings… Touching you I feel it, all again..”
“Dude! Ano oras ang flight?! Pucha naman bat ngayon mo lang sinabi!!!! Pare naman!!! Alam mo namang ilang araw ko na syang tinawagan at di nga sinasagot ang mga tawag at text ko! Pati helper nila tinatawagan ko hindi ako sinasagot!” (Dude! What time is her flight?! Fuck why didn’t you tell me earlier?! Dude! You are very well aware that I have been calling her and texting her even the helper! But I am receiving no answers at all!)
“Is this seat taken?”
“Oh hi Jerry, no it’s okay. Beer?” I offered.
“He’s been looking for you since you left him there… Ugh no. He has been looking for you since 2004.. A bottle of beer, please! You want anything?”
“No, I’m good. Thank you.” Took a deep breath… “Jerry? What happened when I left, back in 2004?”
“When I saw you here this noon, everything came back in a snap..I was overwhelmed for my friend. I was surprised. I was shocked. But happy at the same time.”
“Happy?” I asked.
“Yes. Yassy? God has his own reasons why you are here, why he is here, why we are all here today. It has been what? 10? 12 years ago? When you told me that you were leaving for the States and asked me not to tell him, I never did, until the day of your flight. I never wanted to be unfair with you so I didn’t tell him.. RIGHT AWAY… I never wanted to be unfair with my best friend. So I told him, but on the day of your flight. Yassy, when he decided to leave you, he was actually suffering from the pain that Jenny left him, his mom was suffering from cancer.”
“HUH? WHY DIDN’T HE..” I had to butt in! I was surprised!
“No, wait, listen first.. his dad left them, he was so angry that time. He never really wanted to tell you, because you were taking up law that time. He was so down not knowing that you can be someone who can save him from losing himself. He actually thought of you and not himself. He never really wanted to be a burden for you. He was afraid of losing another person when everybody else seems to be like leaving. You were his confidant, yes, but he was afraid that you might just leave him if you’d learn all the issues he was trying to solve that time. He didn’t know what to do. When you told him that you will leave him, he knew then, that you will never do it. But he was afraid that you might. That took him a long time to realize. When you were trying to send him messages, he was always with me. He was so down. He misses you every day, he wanted to send you messages every day, respond to your messages everyday, but..”
“But he DIDN’T!” Crying
“He didn’t because he was just.. he was just not sure if you will still accept him..”
“What the fuck Jerry! Did you guys really think I won’t be able to handle that kind of situation? His life was dull and boring before we started dating! He was so down because Jenny just died. What other tests would you guys like me to try?”
“Yes, and it was too late when he realized it. The day of your flight, I called him. He was still sleeping that time because he used to go out every day, drinking with friends, always getting home late and drunk. It was 1sh in the afternoon, and your flight was 6 in the evening. Yas? He went to the airport. He tried his luck that maybe..just maybe he can still see you and can still say sorry. But you have already checked in. “
SURPRISED. Heart’s beating so fast.
“He tried his best to communicate with you while you were away. But you were not answering his emails. He called your mom. He called your best friend Tina. He called your friends and they all said, just let her be. He didn’t stop stalking you, until he saw a photo with a PhilAm guy at a party that says With the best boyfee in the world“
“Wai’, Wha’ Ho’.. Oh my God! With the best boyfee in the world. Yes! The best boyfriend.. boy – friend.. guy friend… You know?! It never meant I was committed! ugh”
“Oh for real?! stupid. hahaha!”
“Why would I joke around?! The problem with your best friend is – he assumes all the time. He assumes that I will leave him, he assumes that I have already forgotten him and that I committed myself with someone in the US right after a few months huh?! For real? tsk” I explained.
“That time, his mom died of cancer, his dad went back for them. His sister left for Dubai. You see, he felt like everybody’s gonna leave him.” Shaking his head. “I think he’s gay!” He whispered.
“No, but kidding aside, Yas? He never stopped loving you. He has been blaming his attitude since the day you left. He has decided to stop working in 2005 of August. He was always drunk. Getting into trouble all the time, rushing him to the hospital twice a month. His life became miserable. I remember back in 2006. “
FLASHBACK.. February of 2006..
Police car… Siren of the ambulance…
“FUCK PARE! Ano ba kaseng problema mo! Hindi ka ba napapagod makipag away! Sawang sawa na mga tao isalba ka! Nakakaawa na si tito!” (Fuck Dude! What is the matter with you? Aren’t you getting tired of this shit? People are getting tired of saving you from this! I feel bad for you dad!)
Few hours later. Room 203
Jerry: “How are you feeling? Feeling better?!” Punch!
Ronnie: “Ouch! Siraulo ka! Wag mo nga akong suntukin ang sakit pa kaya!” (Ouch! Crazy! Don’t punch me you, idiot! It is still painful!.. But you know what dude? What is even more painful than this? It was my life in 2004. When Yassy left. I thought her life is gonna be better off without me. Yes, I guess. Maybe she’s a lawyer now. Her life is awesome, She has an American BOYFEE.. ugh.. that BOYFEE.. I thought I’ll be fine without her… It even made my life miserable.”
“Ronnie, if you really want her, it’s never late! Be better. Be better than yesterday. Look at you! And Yassy is not the only girl in the world.”
“But she’s the perfect WOMAN for me. Because she’s the only one who was there for me when my life was incomplete. And I just broke her heart”
“Be better than yesterday Dude. One day, you’ll find answers. Someday..”
“Jerry? I still don’t know what to say.”
“2006, he applied for a new job. It was then when he realized that things are getting better for him. He learned. He stood up and he helped himself.”
“I am still puzzled, Jerry. Let’s call it a night?”
“Okay. Where do you stay? I’ll walk you to your hotel.” Jerry offered.
“I stay in Shang, but tonight I’ll just find a lodging here somewhere.”
“There is a GLAMPING TENT at Blue Water resort here in Sumilon, would you like to try that? That is actually where we stay too. Don’t worry it is safe and I won’t let Ronnie bother you”
“Okay. Let’s go there now.”
“Wow! This is cool! Anyhow, Jerry? Thank you. Thank you for today. Thank you for always being there for Ronnie, for me. Thank you for always being there for us. “
“Goodnight Yas.” And he just smiled.
It was already 1:30 in the morning and I still can’t sleep. I went out of the glamping tent and sat down. My glamping tent is next to theirs. They are just a few steps away from me. And yes, what is this all about? Why am I really here? Why are we all here? What is this all about?
Laid down and fell asleep. Yes. Outside the glamping tent. >.<
“Oh Shit! The sun is shining! Ugh! I actually fell asleep outside the tent! Gosh.”
“Oh! Why! What!? What is this?”
Found a blue towel on top of me. Smiled. And yeah. He is still the sweetest.
Looked at me and smiled. “Morning Jerry”.
“Breakfast? Come with us. Ronnie, prepared something for the gang.” He invited me to join them for breakfast.
And yeah. I joined them.
At the table…
“Morning Yas” Ronnie greeted me.
I smiled and said, “Morning”…
“Miss, coffee?” Ronnie offered.
“Wala naman lason to? Thank you.”(No poison? Thank You.)Giggled.
And everything started there… AGAIN. That time, I thought of giving him another chance. Maybe, just maybe… There is a reason… Why we got the chance to talk again.
Right after breakfast, I took a break under the tree next to my glamping. Where the shade is so inviting…
He sat next to me. And smiled. I smiled back.
“So what’s keeping you busy?” I initiated a topic.
“Well, I ah, I now manage my own business. As you know, it has been my dream to put up my own coffee shop. Have it at the metro. If you have a lot of time, you can visit anytime”.
“Okay, so are you inviting me to have coffee or to just visit your shop?” Giggled.
“Haha both?” He answered.
“Let’s see. I’ll let you know when I get back to Manila.”
“And how’d I know? I do not have your number..” He said.
“Well, I can give it to you.. But I’ll think of it first” Giggled again.
“Yassy? I just want to say sorry about..”
“Ronnie? It’s okay. Forget about it”
He smiled. And I smiled back.
“Guys, I have to get back to my hotel now. It’s nice seeing you all.”
“Yassy, when are you going back to Manila?” Jerry asked.
“I’ll be going back to Manila tomorrow. I have a client meeting on Monday” I answered.
“Oh Great! Alright! What time is your flight back to Manila?” Jerry asked.
“I see. What’s your number? So we can meet you there or visit you maybe?” Ronnie asked.
Gave my number to Ronnie and headed back to Shang.
“Hi, Atty. Good morning! Your client meeting at 10 in the morning is canceled today.”
My secretary called me.
“Mrs. Reyes said, she can’t come today. She needs to accompany her daughter at the hospital. She asked me if we can reschedule the meeting on Thursday?”
“Ahuh. I see. Alright then, kindly check my schedule on Thursday and just talk to her about it. Is there any other schedule for today?”
“Well, you actually asked me not to schedule anything today, since you just got back from Cebu last night, except for the one with Mrs. Reyes which is canceled.”
“Alright. I’ll see you tomorrow. Thank you”
When I was about to get back to sleep..Ring! Ring!
“Yassy?” It’s a guy. Voice is familiar.
“Ugh. Hello. Yeah? Who’s this?”
“Jerry here! Seems like you didn’t save my number?! haha You free today?”
“Oh Hi!.. Well fortunately yes. The meeting is canceled. What’s up?”
“Great! Let’s hang out! Let’s visit Ronnie’s coffee shop today”
I was a bit shaky, stood up and answered “Ugh. Okay. Where is it again?”
“No, you don’t have to drive yourself there. Will pick you up at 2ish?”
“I see, okay. See you guys later!”
I was a bit excited! What to wear? Okay. Calm down Yassy.. Everything’s gonna be fine. Breathe in, breathe out.
Tic toc tic toc.. I got myself prepped up at 1ish.
1 message received!
“Hi Yas. OTW”
“Oh. Hi!” Surprised. It’s Jerry. Only Jerry.
On our way to the shop, he was a bit quiet. It’s not the same.
“Are you okay?” I asked.
“Oh yes. Of course.” He answered. “Yas?” Follow up question. “How long have you been single?”
“Hahaha and what is up with that question? Oh well, I’ve never had gotten into a relationship since 2004”
“FOR REAL??? He really broke your heart.”
“Not really. It helped me in many ways anyway. I achieved a lot of things and time is just right I think.”
“I see. And are you ready to fall in love again?”
“Alright! Here we are. After you Madame”
“Hi!” He opened the door for us. Cheek to cheek. Blush.
“Here, this table is really reserved for a special guest like you. What would you like to have? Everything is for free.” Ronnie said.
“Wow! I have been here a thousand times! But this is the first time, you reserved this table and everything is for free! Okay, I want to have coffee of the day please.” Jerry said, cracking a joke.
“Well, I would like to try whichever is the best here”
“Coming up madame,” He said.
He personally prepared the drinks and snacks for us. While waiting, Jerry and I talked about some stuff.
Looked around, a simple girl at the cashier smiled. So I smiled back.
Ronnie, approaching our table, followed by the girl who is smiling at me.
“Yassy, I’d like to you try our coffee of the day and these sandwiches.. especially made by my wife, Rica.”
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY..
Stuttering.. “Ah, oh yes. of course, thank you! Hi, Rica? yes. Hi, I am..”
“Atty. Rondilla. The famous Atty. Yassy. Finally. It’s nice to meet you. My husband told me a lot of things about you.”
I do not know what to say. I wanted to cry, I wanted to just leave. But, she’s… She’s a nice woman. I caught Jerry looking at me, and he decided to break the ice…
“Okay! So Atty. Rondilla, they actually have here a spot which is called the SAY IT HERE tree.” Handed me some small colored papers and a colored pen.
What to write?
“Please excuse us. We just need to attend to other customers.” Rica suddenly said. Smiled and left.
“Write it there,” Jerry said. Then smiled. “I know the feeling. I know how it feels.I know what it feels like. I know how difficult it is for you to deal with the wife of the guy that you used to love. I know. I felt that”
Staring at the window. Trying to understand what he’s saying.
“I know the feeling. I have been there. Done that. The same feeling……………….. when Ronnie told me that you guys………………….. were……………….. exclusively dating…………….. a decade ago.”