“Somewhere, lost in the wind.. I’m watching you, sunlight touching your hair.. And i remember, somehow, we said that we would never stray, but somehow we lost our way..” This song is always playing whenever I drive ugh. Oh shit! I almost ugh. “Dude what time is the party? Fuck I’m sorry. I swear I forgot that it’s today. Hang on, I’ll go check my schedule. Will get back to you later! I’ll try my best to be there tonight, will just drop by Tina’s house..”
Brian.. Brian.. Brian.. A guy who has always been – well almost – ugh, nope wait.. Brian is a guy whom I met back in the days when I was still playing barbie dolls. Yeah schoolmates but was never introduced then because he is older than me. Been seeing him around the town with some mutual friends and sometimes at parties or events. A party goer, a handsome, clean looking guy, a responsible son, brother, uncle and a bachelor.. Yes a bachelor.. You’ve read it right! And when I say BACHELOR, you know what it means.. Single and ALWAYS READY TO MINGLE.. I’m Tiffany and this is OUR story..
“Mom?! What the. We are just dating! Or nope, should I say.. We are just friends..okay? That’s just it.”
“I’m warning you kid! I’m warning you.”
“Em werning u ked, em werning u..” Why do they always have to warn me when it comes to him? What the fudge is wrong with him? Like ugh!
“Dude? You free tonight? Coffee? Two bottles? Foodtrip or something! I just need someone to talk to. And you’re the best bud to answer all my questions.”
“I knew it! Been waiting for you to call..see you in a bit! Same place! Mickey d’s” That’s EG. A sister from a different mother.
“1 cheeseburger, 1 regular burger, 2 large fries, 2 large drinks and a box nuggets for 2 beautiful ladies, please. Thank you. ” “So what’chu tell your mom?”
“Nada! I said we are just friends! That’s what we are anyway… I think?”
“Friends.. That’s actually what I also thought before.. But seeing him everyday and like having lunch, dinner or so.. That is a different thing. Like EVERY FRIGGIN’ DAY”
“Where are you? Why did you go out late at night? I mean. Okay. Shouldn’t ask, but.. Ugh. How are you gonna go home? Can you like ask Erica to drive you home now? Coz I’ll call you and it has been like 30 minutes since the last time you replied to my messages??”
“Okay.. On my way home”
“Good morning beautiful! How’s your sleep? Sorry it took us 4 hours talking over the phone and I think you are still sleeping! Hit me up when the queen has already stepped on the devils head. Kisses!”
“Good morning handsome! Yes. 4 hours and 27 minutes to be exact. But it’s fine. It’s you, remember? ”
“Okay. 7ish then.”
“Hey bud! You still up? I just got home. And my brother is being stupid again. For some reason that I really don’t understand. Like! Can’t these people be happy coz I’m happy? I mean yeah. Not in a relationship. Not committed. No label! – YET. And yeah. I don’t know. ”
“Ok bud! Here we go again. I have said it a lotta times and I will say it again. They are just worried because they know him so well and they know you as well, and you already have a kid. Come on! Yes, you both know your priorities. You guys are both responsible of your actions. However, we cannot make them believe that you are just friends.. Coz you guys have been going out, datin’ for 4 consecutive weeks already! What’chu expect?. Yes, you may – for now, go with the flow. But sooner or later both of you will question yourselves why this, why that, why not? And you won’t be able to answer those questions now. Well not until you get to that day”
“So what do I do?”
“You know what to do! You just don’t want to do it.”
3 months later..
“Thanks for today. I never thought you’d surprise me. I mean, that is not you. That is not the Brian that I have met before. And why are you doing this?”
“Didn’t you like it? Okay. You can throw the flowers. You can forget all about what happened today.”
“No! That’s not what I’m tryna say. I mean, we both agreed that nobody will expect too much from each other. We are just happy being together. Going out everyday. Having dinner, lunch and sometimes breakfast together. But, why are you making me feel special? And then one day what?” (Overwhelmed, confused, happy, and about to cry..)
“I am happy being with you. I have never done this before. You are already a mother. A single mother and I never dated a mother before. I don’t know. I don’t think I need reasons. All I know is I’m very happy when I’m with you. I’m just worried about what people’d say if they see you dating me. I mean, not to offend you but you know I’m single. And you’re a single mom. Point is, I respect you and I’d be the first person to get hurt if they say something bad about you. And I’m sure you know what I mean.” (Tryna hold my hand while driving)
“Just drive me back home and let’s talk tomorrow.” (Quiet.. Very quiet.. Not saying a word)
“Hug.. Kiss on the forehead.. I’ll call you when I’m home. ” and then he left..
“Okay. Okay I get it. But we don’t have to tell people how happy we are. I mean, why do we have to pretend when it’s just you and me and Darlene?” (Darlene is my 3 year old kid)
“Babe? One word. Happiness. Go to bed now. Take a rest. I’ll see you tomorrow”
“Bud? Ugh. I dunno but I think this is what you were tryna tell me a few mos ago.”
“Any answers? I already know the questions. I need an answer and a solution.” (E.G. has always been there for me like 24/7… She knows me well)
5 mos later..
“So, what do you do Tiffany? And who are your parents?”
“Ugh. I ah.”
(Held my hand under the table. Looked at me straight in the eyes. Like as if, he’s reminding me to just be myself)
“I ah, yes. I manage the family business that my parents left for us. My parents put up several businesses before they flew back to the US. I stay at home because I have to look after my kid too, ma’am”
“Oh! Wait what? You’re a single mom?” And whispered to her son “we have a lot to talk about later kiddo”
“Yes, I have a 3-year old kid and she lives with me”
“And where is her dad? Don’t get offended,this question is too personal yes but I’d like to know where the dad is?”
“It’s ok ma’am. Her dad left us when she was just 3 months old. For some reason that he isn’t readyto have a family yet. But I have always been proud of myself being a single mom, because even if I was not able to give my kid a complete family, I know that I was, I have been and will always be a responsible mother to Darlene. Giving her life and not giving up on her is already a difficult job without pay. And not all can do that.”
An hour later.
“Get this over and done you, young man! Or I’ll send you back to Australia!”
“Tif! It has been 5 days since the day you started crying! And you ain’t even picking up his calls! What do you want?! He has been calling me several times since Tuesday.”
“And what do you want me to do? Like! Answer the call and tell him that I’ve been hurting? E.G. you don’t understand! Dating for 5 months is not easy! I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE!!!”
“Look bud! I can tell. Okay? I know. And I knew from the start. But can’t blame you. Love is love and Even if I have been reminding you a thousand times, I know that one day, you’d say NO LABEL BUT YOU HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE. And so what to do now huh? Cry yourself out at night for 10 months? And then what? Look at you! The last time I visited your office, your secretary said you only visited 2 months ago. Only because you need to get your spare charger! Fudge Tif! You still have Darlene! And the business. Come on!”
After a week.
Dingdong! “Hi! Is tif there? Oh, I see. Okay, I just dropped by to send these food and stuff. Tell her to hit me up when she’s up! Gotta run some errands today! Thanks!”
“Yes ma’am E.G., thank you!”
7 years later
“Morning Bud, can I drive the kids to your house today? I swear I’ll pick them up later tonight! I think this is it! Maybe he has changed. I dunno. I’m a bit excited though. I hope he has already changed.” (Excited!)
“Hello. Ugh. Morning. Okay. Nana is downstairs. Just tell her to prepare food for Darlene and Carlo. I’ll attend to them later. You know I slept late last night. And yeah! Maybe he has changed. Goodluck! Catch you later!” (Sleepy..)
“Oh thanks bud! You are the best! Love you to the moon and back! (Very excited!)
“Yeah whatever tif! Buy me some green veggies for my lunch!!!! You stupid thing! Bye!” (Call ended)
“So what have you been doing for the past years?”
“Been working for the past years. Earning money. Dating women. You know foreign people are really different but I was able to adapt the environment. It was difficult at first but I figured how to manage them. And you? Still single?”
“That’s great! Well yeah. I’ve never dated anybody since the last time I got my heart broken.”
“Whoooowww! Tiffany Ramirez?? The queen of all queens in the campus, the head turner?? Got her heart broken? And who the fuck is this stupid guy huh?”
“It’s Brian.. Brian your batchmate way back in high school Matt.”
“Oh! Brian the bachelor. So when was this?”
“7 years ago?” (While chewing steak)
“Ugh! 7 years ago? So it’s you?! You are the woman in the book? Holy cow! Could you give a minute?”
“Wait? Why? What? What’u talkin’ about?! Matt tell me!”
“Just a second!” Left the table and went out
Ring! “Dude! Is Tiffany the famous Darlene in your story when you got back to Australia 7 years ago? Is she the woman you dated for a few months and left your heart broken?”
“Dude, it’s 1 in the morning here in Australia and you are on a vacation calling me late only to ask if Tiffany is the woman in my book. Are you nuts?! Give me some time to sleep! I just got home from Amanda’s house! Fuck! It’s been ages come on!” (Call ended)
Beep beep! Beep beep!
“Oh Gosh Darlene your mom has always been late since the day we became bestfriends”
“You know what to do aunt… Move over Carlo! Don’t sit on my skirt! I’ll be performing later! Ugh.”
“Stop that you little rugrats! Sorry bud. Alright lets go!” (Wearing the other pair of her earrings)
(Darlene performing on stage.)
“Look at her. We have been finding a father for your kid for the past 10 years. Not knowing that she has already found a father in you. I am so proud of you bud.” (fistbump)
“Oh well, I’m just glad that my siblings did not give up on me. And you, thank you for not giving up on my never ending drama. Thanks for looking after Darlene and Carlo while I’m away. And thanks for treating them like your own kids. I’m sure God will give you and Pete one soon” (leaning on her bud’s shoulder) Green veggies for dinner?”
“Mom? Can I ask you something? Where is my dad?” (Darlene asked while having dinner after the program)
“Darls finish your food. This is not the right time to discuss that honey.”
“And why is Carlo a gift from God? Like, I cannot remember you getting pregnant?”
“Darls I said, finish your food and we will discuss that next time okay?”
“I mean mom! Who is that guy behind you? Holding flowers? Is he my dad?” (Confused)
“Huh?” (Turned around to look who the man is)
“Okay kids? Let’s go out. Let’s play!” I’ll take care of this bud!”
“Hi.” (Brian standing)
“Ugh. Oh. Yeah. Hi.” (Stuttering)
“Let me talk first. Matt told me that he has found you and gave me your new address. Tried finding it but the helper said Darlene has a school program. I texted Erica and asked for the details of your schedule today. And I have been stalking you for the past years and I just decided to stop checking up on you when I saw a new baby on your account thinking that you already have a new partner. But Matt and Erica already explained everything. Carlo is an adopted child. For the past years, I never dated anybody. I have to understand how fragile LOVE can be, and felt broken when I left.”
“I dunno what to say..” (Still surprised)
“Hhsshhh One word Tif.. Happiness. I came back for happiness. Flowers for you. Can we start all over again?”
1 week later.. (Inside the car)
“I love you, love..” (Held my hand while driving”
“I love you more.”
“Trace of forever lingering..Drawing me closer to you..A new beginning..Now I know..There is no doubt I understand..Just how fragile love can be..I can’t forget..Your mem’ry found me..Now I know where I belong..
I’m ready this time..I know that I’m no longer undecided..Don’t wanna be a fool wondering..What might have been..Through every day, into the night..With only love to guide us..I’m ready to go, coz I’ve got to know..What might have been.. Let the lovin’ decide, I can’t run, I can’t hide..”
Disclaimer: This is my friend’s story. But with a twist. Real ending??? They saw each other at the restaurant… Brian with his wife and 2 kids… They got back from Australia. Tiffany? Dating Matt.
I am the writer. Thanks for reading! – Erica Grace.. your bud!